Saturday, December 20, 2008

Being an A-hole

I never say that I am sorry I consider it a sign of weakness.

I don't feel good about it, but that is the way the I am.

I have learned to not take anything for granted and therefore don't like to give out respect as is it was something everyone deserves.

Respect is earned and in my lifetime only a few have heard me say that I am sorry.

I am sometimes considered an asshole....because I seem to not feel.

But people don't understand that showing weakness where I was raised meant attracting undo attention to myself ( that would usually mean a beatdown)

I was not beat up often but I know that uncomfortable situations were usually created because of my friends who did something to someone and because my friends could not be found I was the victim of their mistakes.

I feel and sometimes I think more that others will ever know...

Evilchavo Out.


Pearmama said...

You sound like my husband. He is the same way. He came from a pretty rough neighborhood (mid-city). I am amazed (and hurt) when he shuts down his emotions and becomes cold as ice. But I realize now it is a defense mechanism.

Evil Chavo said...

Thank you for posting,

I always read your blog.

Sometimes it is hard to be this type of person because we are often misundertood.

Not many people can see thru the mask that we wear.

BUt those that do always become good friends.

Evilchavo Out.

Pearmama said...

You should leave me a comment once and while!! Comments are good!